"It All About Attitude and Optimism"

Conquering Freedom

"It's All About Attitude and OPTIMISM"

      So...it's been a suppppper doooppperr long time (like 7 months) since the last time I blogged and let's just say I had a pissy poor attitude about a career transition which ended messy and unfair in my opinion.  So before I begin - what I will say is that this entry is the prelude to several entries which will tell a story and hopefully inspire a few people. Hopefully, encourage people to respond to life's circumstances more powerfully and know that nothing is by coincidence.  My OPPORTUNITY in this transition has really been all about attitude, PERSPECTIVE, THOUGHTFULNESS, and an openness for greater aspirations beyond my wildest dreams with INTENTION, if only to surrender and let go of what is and what no longer serves me or in your case you.  The only problem is when you surrender to life, to your circumstances, and when you allow what is to flow,  you truly begin to co create and MANIFEST your hearts desires.  The only catch is that you have to confront who you really are as a person, and who you are being and this opportunity may reveal some ugly truths about who you are but also some very beautiful truths about who you are becoming.  Because this process is so uncomfortable and because it stretches your faith, it requires you to trust some times even when things appear to be unfair or unexplicable. The impact is that we deprive ourselves of a breakthrough because we end up turning back way before its time when things get difficult.  I am living it right now

 

     

Often times we are afraid of the unknown because we become comfortable with what is or what has been even when God and the universe wants to align itself to give us more.  Often times, what is, is not what can be because we don't allow it to be and this is because we don't trust anything or anyone.  In fact, we really don't care what can be because subconsciously we want things to be easy, comfortable, painless.  We dont want to feel at all- wed rather be numb and lacking than feeling and rewarding.  We are afraid to truly feel anything that challenges us to be better and what I have realized is that life's design is about all preserving the INTEGRITY of who we are and what we are becoming and this constant is an evolution. We are always becoming greater.  Each intricate detail of every one's life is not coincidental but perfectly carved to elevate his/her faith, ability to trust and to SERVE others with gratitude. Despite circumstances we are always serving one another even when it appears that the people we encounter are shitty INDIVIDUALS.  Even still, MIRACLES often simultaneously occur in these very moments.

     So let's begin - last September after finally starting to feel great about where life has taken me - story of my life is my career  - job transitions.  I walk into work at 9"00 am and at 9:05 am I'm told I no longer have a job, and to choose to leave or be fired.  By 9:20 I am escourted out of the building by security. For no reason, other than racial discrimination.  Also the story of my life, having to work under people and in places that do not value you because you are African American, and you are an African American male who is smart as shit, who knows his shit and this eats people up.  Now I'm not a racist far from it. I don't even see race unless its projected on to me by others but this situation has been my last 8 months and has been full of highs and lows. What is scary is that I've actually watched myself grow much more colder and heartless as a person, faithless, and angry because this is what I feel the world is dishing out to me.  Its hard to ignore.  This is me,in my courage to feel how I feel...and its ok for a little while.